Well...today started just like those days before
Still got tht breathless feeling...so tired...chest pain...i really wonder wads wrong
Lessons are as usual except that today's math tutorial was like sitting on some bumpy and uncomfortable ride...the pace was fast and somewhat unpleasant (wad a teacher we have man), it 'accelerated' my weird symptoms. Got out of the class breathing as if im hyper-ventilating...luckily there was smth to look forward to nearing the end of sch..Badminton! Um i mean PE lessons actually...
But still! its been ages since i played badminton...i can still remember most of the times when i played this game (since i was still living in Yishun). Almost every badminton game i played, its like a memory thats special in a way...it reminds me of my past...my old friends
Life is just so different now, im glad that even now, i still get to meet ppl who loves to play this game...its like a bonding session haha

Even after the game today, i beg Melly to play the piano for me! Love IT! i really dunno how to explain the feeling inside...when you played, my inside seems to prickle...its so so SO Touching
For a moment, i felt really blessed...
Thanks for everything everyone:)

Mood? Really happy today!

10:32 PM; unwrittenWORDSY

Its been raining these few days...
Sad?
Lonely?

stares at the reflection in the puddles of water

Its been so long since i met you guys...im really glad to meet you ppl again...
Xian, i'll really love to meet you more...miss chatting with you, miss sitting next to you...please take care of yourself k
Adel, thanks for your help and listening to your jap lesson is interesting, please eat properly k...hope your stomach's ok...

NELL! its really been ages since our meeting and crapping...i MISS being with you at the padang, miss being with you when there's training and nationals...i just realise how much i wanna be with you again, but you're always so busy and these days? you always seem to be away...far away



Every memory that we shared together still lives deep inside, though i may seem fine...but there always live a longing...a dream that we could go back to those days when you seem to be near me each and every day

4:49 PM; unwrittenWORDSY

I wanna dedicate this song to all my close friends...those who helped me thru all the bad times and went thru all the good times with me...luv u all...for being there with me all the way...

Because You Loved Me - Celine Dion
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

(im forever grateful and forever indebt to you all...)

4:08 PM; unwrittenWORDSY

Spent my christmas eve with my beloved Bestie! and my most special friend Nelly!
Missed you ppl lots! We promised to go holiday tgt in the near future, im so excited! Cant wait for tht day to come...

Aha, i didnt break my promise...you guys will be the first people to see me in a skirt outside...haha! i think it really feels weird thou...nvm about tht, I really enjoyed tht day with you ppl. Though we didnt do much but i can feel the love among us...especially when we hold one another's hand:)

Let it rain for it wont dampen our spirits
Love you all, miss you all and i know i wont get over it...never

12:47 PM; unwrittenWORDSY

Ah..im finally back from taiwan:)
Taiwan isnt such a bad place after all...just dont go on package tour...very limited and it gives you a wrong impression(atleast for me it does)
BUT! this time my family went with my closer relatives on Free-and-Easy! Yay!
The food there turns out to be quite good! The scenery too! The people there? Very Friendly! and helpful...its quite embarrassing because its obvious that our service standards aint as good as them.
Seems like we're not as competitive as them... so less stress
Except that life in the countryside is very slow and easy...this young woman who opens a shop in shi fen says that it doesnt matter if there were no customers...she'll just drink coffee by herself and relax...wow! how easy for it to come out of her...im so in envy! i dunno y im jus so down at times...maybe i shld take a long holiday away from everything... ... ...

The stuff there has much more creativity, lots of variety...so that most ppl cant repeat stuff...isnt tht good? haha plus its affordable:) Bought quite some stuff and i owe my mummy about 2oobucks:(

The place tht i love most is yeh liu, its exposed to the pacific ocean and its really cold...it seeps into my bone and caused my stomach to clench and now im still sick since the start of hoilday, but its worth it...i still love it no matter wad...loook out to the ocean n mountains and i feel so lost in them.

Missing it...

12:17 PM; unwrittenWORDSY

Oh yea...zoo was great!
the animals are sooo cuuttee!!

Went to Singapore's Zoological gardens recently on thursday with my dear and her sister:) I thought that the ride would take such a long time but it didnt keep us waiting for long...soon we reached the entrance and it costs us 15bucks each (i think its really worth it)
Ahhh the feelings great! havent been to the zoo for a few years i guess...since primary 6 maybe..haha oh wells, it was difficult to find people who are willing and at the same time..very enthusiastic about going to the zoo :p

It was such a wonderful day, though it drizzles abit here and there, i felt as if nothing...Nothing! could dampen my spirits that day (even a match that i lost the day before)
I think that its due not only because of the animals and such, but its because im with the person i love most (besides my family...sorry dear but i know u'll understand)

I really wanna thank you, haha actually i didnt know we shared this common interest, but anyway i know you agree that its difficult finding people to go to the zoo with and im really glad i found you...

Aww and not forgetting the poor polar bears which Singapore seem to be planning to move away. I cant believe that they are going to send 'Inuka' to some other zoo! (which shld be overseas since sing didnt have a 2nd zoo) Worse still, they will be keeping the mum 'sheba' until she passess away since she's abit too old for long travels. Why? just because they wanted to create a zoo themed as some tropical rainforest thingy...dotz

There's this weird craving now to go to the zoo again (especially to see the polar bears!), anybody willing to visit the zoo with me??? i'll be really grateful:)

Oh dear...can send me the pics? i wanna see if any can be uploaded, Thanks and muacks:)

12:06 AM; unwrittenWORDSY

*It hurts when no one seems to be appreciating what you're doing*
But think of us, we honestly appreciate whatever you've done...sometimes your pressence is enough, just be with us...
hey haha sorry but yea i think it doesnt just hurt, its much worse...a 100% killer.
But But, i want you to know that i appreciate you as a person. We started out as partners, friends, really good friends then i realise how important you are to me, we became inseparable. Now? you're my dear, my bestie:) !!!
Be positive, there'll always be someone who appreciates you...even one counts:) like ME!

*It hurts when people who used to be there, aren't there anymore*
Its sad to know that, everyone experiences it but im sure there's always someone who is installed for you, just have to keep moving on. Im sorry that we wont be able to bring that person back but you've got us if you ever need us so...and we dont wanna lose you

*It hurts when i see people around me feeling so sad*
Im so Sorry! yea guess im quite sad at times and i affected you, but i want you to know that you were always there for me and i appreciate it so much, keep on being so cheerful and smiley because your light shines through...release us from the darkness that binds us

*It hurts to see how snobbish people can seem to get anything*
Hmmm maybe i know what exactly it is...but seems like we cant do anything about it, its their way of being irritating and pesky, all we can do is be with people that you like more and just dont bother about them...its their problem, dont let them affect you. Be Strong.

love
...all of my life

1:18 AM; unwrittenWORDSY

haiz...so tired...sleepy...out of my mind today(says dear friends)
Its been 4 days of 12hr work each, money comes easily, time passess uh somewhat slowly, still...i really wanna say thanks to bestie who was with me throughout!
Couldn't hav made it without you...i'll jus die or faint there...with all the smoke and irritating ppl
Only you stood out and all i see is you...can say tht you distract me haha, lost track of time

Bought 2beanies that resembles us somewhat i guess...how's your 'dumb dumb' the snowman? hehehe

back to ordinary life.
tried to do some work today and in the end, i fell asleep at some point and didn't really finish wad i wanted to do. Borrowed a book even though i knew there were 2 more waiting at home (oh forgot, they are due soon too..haiz). Almost froze in the air-con, wah very conducive indeed to do work in such a place...experience the brain freeze and never got to think properly for the answers...im sure to die when it needs to be handed up...crap

went dinner with mummy and daddy as usual, yay:)

But then, saw something/someone...
its been a long time.
nv knew you'll come back to haunt me...i've decided to leave but there's still this desperate clinging...i know its impossible to go back, never will i get back like before...there's no hope
the sorrow
the misery
there are colours in life and this consisted of all the dull colours that you can imagine

time to let go...

wished and thus its easy
but can you really make it

12:03 AM; unwrittenWORDSY